Smile

Valentine's was perfect this year, we couldn't do anything since he had to work his second job. He did, however, come strolling in the door with 6 long stem roses and hershey kisses. The good ones, caramel and peanut butter! On saturday we spent the morning doing nothing, lying in bed, then the boat show, dinner, and out for a friend's birthday. Sunday we lay in bed until noon, ran 1 erand, and went to a movie. I got a full out back massage, oil and all.....yeah! It was perfect, low-key, simple, and true to the way we are together.

All in all, life is good. I smile a lot, and laugh even more. I forgot what it was like to wake up and walk to the coffee pot and just smile becuase it's another beautiful day.

LSD-Thanks for the idea about the little candy hearts.....that worked out well to my advantage as well!

It's SNOWING!

All week long I have been excited about the dropping weather, and the snow on the ground. Although, this does make precarious conditions for driving my lunk of junk to work, I love it! Work has been slow, but steady, and I'm dreading the fast approaching lay-off. Indy and Chicago are going to the Super Bowl! Through all of the ridiculous, soap opera-esk things that seem to accumulate at my doorstep all the time, I have managed to keep a pretty positive head on my shoulders. I knew that most of that drama would end in my own disappointment, but I took a leap of faith and fell. My hopeful, romantic head took over the rest of my being and promptly shut down any reality receptors that would've kept me from such peril, but I know that. So, this week I built a snowman, and had a snowball fight, and rode snowmobile's, and took an escape away from everything and everyone. I still had to work, but I got to come home to comfort, relaxation, and personal growth. Then I watched a good episode of sex and the city...and I realized, why do women always have to learn something? Men just move on, and women have to learn something. So, I then decided just to be pissed off, hurt, angry, and then realize that I did it to myself. Then I started the road of healing. The process of deletion started, his phone number deleted, his text messages and e-mails deleted, took all of his jewelry off and put it in a box in the bottom of a box on the top shelf of my closet. I wrote and thought about posting a rather long blog, then decided that was beneath me. So, I am leaving for a snowmobile trip for the weekend, just a close friend, snowmobile's, and a weekend of fun. We both needed to relax and we've always been close, so we figured what the hell. A cabin in the woods, great food, and a good friend to forget about the everyday hustle and bustle with. I got a good boost of confidence when I saw the pictures of me from the local contest I did last weekend, middle of january and I still look pretty damn good in a bikini. So, hopefully injury free, I'll be back late sunday night ready to face a new week.